Friday, January 19, 2018

Speechless

I can't tell you I love you
But not out of choice
Every time I try to scream
I happen to lose my voice

I'm drowning in denial
Convinced I'm floating on hot air
Empty words on empty mouths
No matter how much I care

I can tell you what I ate for breakfast
Or when depression hit me last
But sharing birthday candle wishes
Is a relic of the past

I know you share my struggle
I see it in your eyes
For We all offer scripted eulogies
When something precious dies

Love is universal
Yet we all sadly stand alone
Building roads and bridges
But nowhere to call home.





Thursday, January 18, 2018

Creating consistency within Chaos

Preface:

I am currently at the beginning stages of creating my own website, where all my content will be connected, but until that happens, I will continue to use this space to update all those who are interested in following my travels.

If you are interested in keeping updated, follow this blog and get informed every time I post, or write any updates.



As usual by any story, the backstory helps put everything into context. So this initial post will be more of the backstory to what I am doing and what this blog will be about.

About a year ago, entering my third and final year of my bachelors, I started thinking about promising prospects/careers after I graduate. Looking around, and speaking to friends and alums, I was dismayed by a reoccurring mindset of compliance. Many people I spoke to were more interested in what job they could find, instead of what job they wanted. Spending three/four years studying in Computer Science, you get a a familiarity with a wide range of subjects, and have the ability to find an area that you enjoy and excel in. And yet, many people I met just took the first job they could salvage.


With money being the ends and not the means, personal choice and preference were disregarded for consistency and complacency.


My intentions here are not to devalue any particular person’s life decisions, but I felt I didn’t want to end up the same way.


And yet, when I asked myself what I was truly interested in – I came up empty. I didn’t know. I don’t know. I never really asked myself that question seriously before. I never gave myself the time or energy to explore the question.


So I decided that instead of looking straight for a job, I would spend time researching areas that could interest me.


To allow myself to ask one fundamental question: What do I want?


Once I established that as my objective for the year, I had to figure out which environment would be the conducive for such an investigation. For although the question is primarily focused around work and income, the intention extends to everything in my life. To just SLOW DOWN, breathe, and see where I stood after all the dust settled.


To do that – I decided to spend the year as a digital nomad.

In short, it means that I work while traveling.


At that is how I ended up here right now, in a coffee shop in Chang Mai, Thailand, nursing a hangover from a night-out from a Jazz Bar I found last night.

Current Workspace

As such, this blog will be a record of what I experience living on the road, the adventures between the work, and anything else I find worth sharing.


Join me – in person or through the blog.

Saturday, January 13, 2018

Uncharted

If the world is indifferent
Why should I dare?
Waltzing on tightrope
I continue to care

Fueled by delusion
Paired with wonder and shame
I flirt with Chaos
He knows me by name

Comforts addicting
Pleasures our drug
We cry out for change
But just need a hug


Encouraged to challenge
Avantgarde becomes cliche
Miming our emotions
With nothing to say

And yet we persist
Building castles out of sand
Seeing symbols in the stars
Exploring new lands

We may be alone
Stranded at night
But we'll never really know
Till we strike up a light.