tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-68236662832799152432024-03-06T01:19:56.820-08:00Lost In 2019Panoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09408795512890518839noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6823666283279915243.post-2193753430812677512019-12-03T21:49:00.001-08:002019-12-03T21:55:16.744-08:00The Daily Struggle of the Fear of Failure.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Not wanting to get ahead of myself, I have always unintentionally had a fear of failing. It took a lot of courage and time for me to muster up myself to be even able to write anything in these blogs. Caring about what other people think about you or view you has been the root of my fear of failure.<br />
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Personally I think that the first step in overcoming this fear is understanding and identifying the root cause. The only way to truly identify and come to an understatement of your fear of failure is to talk to other people. It is important to discuss the issues you face with people you can trust and have them help you along the way. Instead of pushing everyone away, open up to only a few so that you can get a different perspective on yourself. A good friend or relative should be able to give you confidence in yourself and prop you up.<br />
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I had noticed that a lot of my friends had also started to lack the urge and will to make themselves better and had become complacent. I didn't realise until I met my girlfriend and she identified this to me that I had started to also notice that it was not only my friends but me too. My lack of drive and complacent attitude to life had really held me back. I had no longer cared if I did better or worse in small tasks and never tried to step out of my comfort zone. I was content with the few things that I had done every week and never really pushed myself or my boundaries.<br />
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I can only attribute this to becoming too comfortable with what I had which lead to a lack of confidence in my self and my ability to try new things. It was a viscous cycle that fed itself. My lack of confidence would feed my inhibition to try new things and potential fail to which me not trying new things and remaining complacent would only lead to lower my confidence even more.<br />
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One thing that started to help me overcome this fear and the lack of confidence in myself was to really push myself to try and do new things every day. Even if those things were microscopic and ultimately weren't that important it would help step by step. It could be as small as changing the route I took to get home or trying something I wouldn't regularly order at a restaurant, small differences in my life started to make big changes in myself and my confidence.<br />
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<br />Panoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09408795512890518839noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6823666283279915243.post-42342136697442344452019-11-20T15:26:00.000-08:002019-11-20T15:26:01.707-08:00Tienanmen Square 2019<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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180 days of unrest and protests has lead Hong Kong's future down a very dangerous path. With the recent barricading in the International University of Hong Kong, Police have made it clear that they will start to use force against their own people. Some of which have mentioned that they will be using live rounds of ammunition to make sure that protesters stay in line. This is not what a country spends its GDP for. This is not what a country defence force is for. No country should be spending its money on defence to protect itself from its own people. It has been instead used to protect the few people that sit in an ivory tower and dictate the lives of millions.<br />
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Corruption and a global unwillingness to help the Hong Kong people will only result in one fate. Unfortunately we will see a 2019/2020 Tienanmen Square scenario, where the military of Hong Kong (which is comprised of mainly Chinese personal) will open live fire on protesters and leave behind bloodshed unseen before by the east in such a developed country in modern times.<br />
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It's honestly sad to see that foreign politicians are sitting on their hands and doing nothing to aid the Hong Kong people or even condone the Chinese for interfering with another countries affairs. I'm not saying that once upon a time Hong Kong wasn't part of China but instead it has since developed into its own nation backed by its own people.<br />
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China's rise to economical power is not only causing issues in Hong Kong but can also be seen in the South China sea. Only yesterday being the 19.11.2019 the US has sent two large aircraft carriers to bolster the strength of the Philippine Navy. This comes after many months of China claiming small islands that once belonged to the Philippines as their own.<br />
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As an outsider to all of this being fed these news reports day in and day out, it has scared me for the safety of my own country. If China does take over Hong Kong, than who's not to say that all the other countries surrounding China are next. When will China's tyranny come to an end, will it ever come to an end...Panoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09408795512890518839noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6823666283279915243.post-29364666016589066172019-11-19T07:30:00.000-08:002019-11-19T15:42:13.548-08:00Escaping the world to online gaming. <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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For me, online gaming has been a huge part of my life. In the early days I was looked down upon and made fun of for enjoying playing online with my friends or by myself. I was dejected from social groups and teased constantly at school.<br />
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I despised the fact that I enjoyed playing video games but at the same time I loved doing it and never wanted to give it up. Around the age of 13-14 I had had enough and wanted to hide from everyone that I still played old games that were not meant for my age but had provided me with endless amounts of joy. I felt embarrassed and tried to separate my daily life from my gaming. I wanted to fit in but at the same time I wanted to game. I quickly became angry and agitated at anyone who tried to mix my daily life with my gaming life. To some degree I felt like I was living a double life.<br />
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Looking back at things now, gaming has probably been a burden in my life and crippled my potential. Instead of filling my time doing what everyone would consider normal things like going outside and partying and making social groups I would much rather stay at home and play some video games. Sure I did my fair share of partying as well and enjoyed it, however the amount of times I had the potential to do something, anything, else and chose not to severely out-weighs the times I did. During my schooling career I frequently put gaming first and put my studies second.<br />
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One thing that lead me to spend so much time in video games was their ability to escape the real world. This was because my my family life at home was far from perfect. Constant arguments from my parents which inevitable spilled out onto myself and my siblings caused me at times to see video games as my only true support. When I was feeling down, video games would cheer me back up and make me forget about all the yelling and mental abuse I was subject to by my parents.<br />
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Despite what mainstream media would have you believe, I think that video games has truly brought together people that no other platform will ever do. Internationally people collaborate and connect with one another for their passion and desire to play video games. I am really happy to see that online gaming and e-sports have taken off and become what they have become today, a place where everyone men and women can enjoy themselves and play some video games together.Panoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09408795512890518839noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6823666283279915243.post-7928796244200406552019-11-18T22:15:00.001-08:002019-11-18T22:47:22.861-08:00Who and Why.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<b>Who and Why.</b></h2>
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For the majority of the content that I will be posting on this Blog I wish remain anonymous.</div>
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My goals in life and my current circumstances have lead me down a path where the only form of expression is via an online forum. </div>
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Regardless of whether or not this Blog becomes well received or even viewed at all, it is far from what I hope to achieve. </div>
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I am a part of a historical majority who have over the years had their views, beliefs and norms looked down upon.</div>
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In an ever changing society where equality is promoted and supported it is important to look from a holistic manner. </div>
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Just because I had been a part of the majority, doesn't mean that my views and ideas are any less of important than the vocal minority. </div>
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I am 25 years of age and a white male, but this shouldn't change your view on my experiences or life ambitions as it was merely given to me.</div>
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I was told that going through University and obtaining a degree would set you up for the rest of your life, however as I have taken off my rose tinted glasses, I can see that the world will never give you such a clear cut pathway. </div>
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Despite having a University degree I am still not the most confidant writer and what I lack in my writing skills I hope to make-up for in my editing and use of simple to understand language. </div>
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This blog will be about my journey, my hardships and topics relating mental health and my experiences. It will cover a range of topics, from online games to political struggles in the world. </div>
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